Welcome to my page of poetry. I have been writing poetry since I was 12 years old, and so far have written over 500 poems. It's an essential way for me to process my feelings and thoughts, and I love seeing the finished poem come together on the page. Here is a small selection of poetry I have written. Check back soon for more!
The clouds are rolling in They gather Over my head I battle against An enemy That wants me dead Where are the sunny gifts The universe Bestowed me I walk heavily as My body slips Below me Encased in the darkness My heart feels like It's breaking How can the earth So suddenly beneath me Start shaking Icy winds cut through me Like a thousand Sharp knives Inside my core A little girl Sits and cries So many, many Rays of sunshine Remain Behind the clouds That shadow me With pain I cannot see them Through this Misty haze How can I find my way Through this Familiar maze © Jacqui Watson
I've been using you To make me feel A reflection To make me real The mirror breaks And so do I My wings are gone I cannot fly I've been using you To fill the hole Substance added To my soul The cup spills And so do I All feelings cease I cannot cry © Jacqui Watson 2006
Stormy bewitchment A shadow that passes Along the fiercest of souls A spell cast upon Those willing to accept the challenge But unknowing of the question having been asked Permission granted, wholly unconscious The journey begins A charmed soul Gathered in silk, black as night Covered with diamonds Of wisdom shining An odd life, a disturbed path To all those who look Except to those who truly see And share the enigma A sprinkling of stars Amongst the midnight skies Mostly unknown But seeing each other Disturbed no longer Eyes staring Out from within the fierce beauty and strength That for so long struggles to be seen © Jacqui Watson 2005
I don't love you This isn't love I barely know you Not really who you are But I know only the face you show And that's not love And this I know I desire you Skin on skin Lips to lips That basic need That drives us all some of the time And that's not love But it's not a crime I don't pretend there's any chance I know it's a dream Just pleasant fantasy My feelings for you are certainly real But not really for you But for how you make me feel I may obsess But out of fear I may not know you Quite as closely as some But in the end that goal is far I only crave the person I imagine you are © Jacqui Watson 2005
Can you see It isn't me A million sparks flying A million candles alight In water reflecting Like memories floating Pieces melting Not for me To see It isn't me Can you hear I said it clear The lake has frozen over Salty ice crusted thick A million tears unshed The concrete cracking Under the weight It's clear You didn't hear It isn't me Can you taste The waste A million old forgotten meals A million years un-nourished Like seasoned stones Inside your core Unknown and not for me The waste Hard not to taste It isn't me Can you touch This much The million faceless shapes Suspended straight above Like a mobile swinging Hurricane winds bringing It into reach This much I cannot touch It isn't me Can you smell Before the bell A million bushfires burning A million smoky tendrils Stinging at your eyes Like any moment You'll see the flames I see in my eyes In the mirror each day But I wont tell There is no smell It isn't me © Jacqui Watson 2006
Soul blue, not easily Seen through, so quietly Untrue, so openly Closed Mind burnt, lessons so Hard learnt, wounds that Just weren't, going to Heal Body slow, unable to keep The flow, intending to Not know, how it's perfect Inside © Jacqui Watson 2005
I want to dance with you Soft on our feet Electric touches passing Between hands Pulsing warmth as bodies Graze each other I want to dance with you At one with the rhythm Turning circles Let go and spark As we meet again And follow the flow I want to dance with you The beat of our bodies Echoed as our eyes Barely leave each other And dance to a song Unheard by our ears I want to dance with you Over and over Simmering tension builds As our breath comes In ragged gasps Desperate to submit to the other's embrace I want to dance with you Each step but a moment That passes between us A seductive code That whispers it's urging Straight to our core I want to dance with you Space becoming Heat as our bodies collide The dance transformed To the luscious surrender Of a different beat © Jacqui Watson 2005
Swoop and dive Little one Joyful one Am I the only one who can see you Or do others look up From the metal and glass And drink in sparrow-magick As the little ones pass? © Jacqui Watson 2006
Stuck between poles Caught between needs Neither here nor there Extremes of care Do I love myself by leaving All the pain behind Can I make the call That would end it all Or do I care by hoping If the hope can be found Amongst these crumbs And hold on for something that never comes Hanging in limbo Frozen in time Suspended animation Losing all sensation Seconds are ticking by Like hours distorted By internal pain And outside the sky rains As if to confirm it No darkness is here Just a rain of tears Down a face full of fears Scarred and broken Heavy under the weight Of this grave decision - make it! No energy to fake it.... Floating in stasis Around me the world moves Neither alive nor dead Just the choice and my head © Jacqui Watson 2006
A bud, forming Unbidden of Eros A deathless drought It stands Unforeseen in it's innocence Afflicted on itself By way of doubt's close embrace Lusting after the indelible kiss Of love's ecstasy Submerged in dual emotion's Liquescent motion Mistrust transformed Noxious doubt decayed Clouded intentions exposed In an explosion of understanding Where unquestionable pain And memory of singularity Though now vague Find her unscathed Incompletion merely starlight In a silken midnight sky Unbridled passion once experienced Here to remain Heart unwrinkled by time A place Hades need not steal Her from again © Jacqui Watson 2005
And so I fumble I don't wanna stumble Just for you to pick me up Don't wanna have you looking down Down on me To see so clear this misery Burning eyes inside my head Pick me up - It's not over yet Burning eyes inside of me Pick me up - My fantasy Each night I fall asleep with you This want, this need You cannot see Each day I wake up from the dream And you're not there I wish you'd care You move close by, my heart has stopped And then I swear Try not to stare But something draws me to your face Not sure quite what You touch that spot This constant need, it's like a trap All out of luck And now I'm stuck A million stolen glances wont Satisfy me It'll never be And so I fumble I don't wanna stumble Just for you to pick me up Don't wanna have you looking down Down on me To see so clear this misery Burning eyes inside my head Pick me up - It's not over yet Burning eyes inside of me Pick me up - My fantasy © Jacqui Watson 2004
I'm hanging by a thread Hoping not to lose my head Floating on an ocean dream Falling more and more in love Trying just to keep above The wave Staying brave I'm sinking into you Not knowing if I'll pull through And in a moment of weakness My heart is open wide To surrender to the tide The ocean's make In your wake In just a moment's time There will be one less line To cross and on behalf Of my sad heart Take me off your list And stay Far, far away © Jacqui Watson 2005
It's been a long dream To wake so suddenly It seems Aware of my acions On the edge of change Standing Looking over Falling now A process begun That cannot be stopped A freedom perceived That cannot be undone The darkness had won And still it beckons Reaching Calling out Fading now As a babe as new as Dewy dawn Misses the womb But to life is drawn It cannot go back To comfort and safety It cannot hide Thrust into This glary new world Then from fear comes awe And from awe comes love Feeling safe in this place It once loathed to face And despite all new trials And hurdles to cross Cannot imagine Leaving it ever And cannot be tempted By darkness again But knows it was worth it Just to be there In the darkness It grew Changed Was inspired For all darkness is healthy Until such a time As it's comfort's outgrown And it's power long dead So I thought I was falling .........But I'm flying instead © Jacqui Watson 2005
An angel cries Every time A soul gives up And ends it's time Here on earth And in the air An angel cries For our despair An angel hurts Every time A lonely soul Commits a crime Against their own Imagined stain An angel hurts For all our pain An angel weeps Every time A soul's hope dies Before it's time And cannot see It's beauty within An angel weeps For what might have been © Jacqui Watson 2005
My very soul's Blood drips Down my arm Off my fingertips I touch your hand I pray Don't look away I need you here I want your love Just touch me once Heal me with Your poison Fix me with those eyes The closeness I fear I need you here Just be near The blood's flowing Let me fall Into you And have it all I'm yours Just call I'd do it all for you Anything you want From me Your slave I can't go on Being brave © Jacqui Watson 2005
When I think of you I touch myself When I think of you I cut myself When I cut the ties I lose myself When I have no one I hold myself In pain's echo I cannot be there To be with myself I cannot bear I run to you But you aren't there I cut myself I'm unaware When I think of you I touch myself When I think of you I cut myself When I hold your shadow I hurt myself When I have no you I imagine myself As waves engulf I pretend they don't As I think I'm dying I pretend I wont As we pass each other I avoid your eye As I wish I hadn't You pass me by When I think of you I touch myself When I think of you I cut myself When I take the chance I abuse myself When I see the truth I fear myself © Jacqui Watson 2005
She shines and I smile A glowing orb Distorted by the earth's shadow Who knows the power She holds Over my liquid body Just as the current pulls My legs from beneath me In the sea Billions of gallons Doing her bidding Who is to say She does not affect us? Human words escape me Blinded as I am By her My head raised Gazing upward Time stops For but a moment Leaving me speechless But full of…… Something…… A blank state descends On my mind A void that holds something More than thoughts But which is beyond my earthly grasp Not empty at all But full of her essence Full of something much larger Than I And all this from a simple glance A milli-second in which I experience The all The past, future, present And so much more Unknown to my self But which calls to my soul Then vanishes Gone from memory In a sudden rush I know I've felt something Groped around the sky And held her in my hand But it is gone And I am blank Frustrated Goddess moon Show me your soul again Open my spirit to your fullness That I may accept your message And so accept my place beneath your beams…. © Jacqui Watson 2004
Everyone has an angel They're easy to see They'll send you reminders All the time, that's the key Watch out for feathers In front of your feet Or a song on the radio That just seems to repeat Butterflies and Birds Bring little messages from above Imagine what they're saying And know you are loved Some say a coincidence Is where angels have been Open your mind What could it mean Look up at the clouds And ask your angel anything Then make pictures like a child And let the answers in Everyone has an angel And often more than one Just say inside your head: "Angels!" and they'll come © Jacqui Watson 2006
I've got a black dog His name is 'Grey' He's at my feet All night and day I've got a black dog He howls all night Though some say his bark Is worse than his bite I've got a black dog He can sit and stay But I just can't get him To stay away I've got a black dog I swear it's true I can't seem to teach him Anything new I've got a black dog He's curled at my feet He's as heavy as lead When he's fast asleep I've got a black dog When he moves it's okay But he'll follow me 'round 'Till he gets his own way I've got a black dog It isn't fair He's a stubborn beast With an anxious stare I've got a black dog I pray it's true When they tell me He's only passing through..... © Jacqui Watson 2005
Like a bird I find myself soaring High above the ocean roaring The moon is full over the sea I'm lifting up and flying free Among the sparkling stars I drift So far below me the ocean cliff From where I launched and with a cry Began my journey in the sky My feathers rustling in the breeze Wrapped in warmth I cannot freeze The air supports me as my friend Caressing my every turn and bend Circling round and round I fly Free and feeling so alive Nothing compares to the feeling of this Of living in universal bliss Moon rays light my wings with power Flying higher than any tower I am one with magic tonight As I experience the eagles flight Like a bird I find myself soaring And I float and drift till it is morning The far horizon births a golden sun And my adventure now is done I fly again to the rocky outcrop And I see my body the closer I drop I join it once more and down I lay Soon to awake for another day © Jacqui Watson 2002
the noise swells inside my head rage that roars vibrates my bed the spinning world is torn apart battered body broken heart so painful that i crave the night i even flee from blinding light the day is here i can't accept returning to the time i wept afraid to shine i want to hurt hiding under mummy's skirt why can't i love the happy me i close my eyes already free © Jacqui Watson 2002
Amid the columns of smoke I stand, Ashes at my feet. My hands once painted red with the blood I have sacrificed, Now clean. Surrounded by skeletons of the past, That crunch as I step, Over them. My eyes no longer sting. My bruises fade with time. My breaks scream no more. I am healed. I remember dreading the, Vibrations from the earth. Just waiting, To shake me from my grip. But they didn't - for I am strong! I watch as shadows pass me by, I whisper a silent, But firm, Goodbye. The village of my former life, Lies in ruins. The consuming blaze has ripped it down. And I still stand! The winds of change, Their howling that once fuelled the fire, Now, Soothes my charred skin like balm. I look back, The terror of loss no longer haunts my mind. Only memories remain. And now my wounds have healed, I come to thank the pain and it's lessons. And I move on! © Jacqui Watson 2003
Looking around me, I see, The life I thought, I'd never live. The hope I felt before, But never seen, Is real. It's happening. Here it is - My life, Where anything's possible, And I can handle anything. Where I have the chance to be happy, Like everyone else. I see it arriving now, As I transform, Emerging, Out of this cocoon, This pregnant, But terrifying, Darkness, And into light, Into truth, Beauty. I look down, At the scars, That remind me, This was real. And as the sun sets, On this long chapter of learning, I find myself excited, And a little afraid, Of the butterfly, I am becoming, And the unknown sky I am flying into. And it's all okay! © Jacqui Watson 2003
Emptiness is full, Something I never knew. The darkened night sky, Is twinkling with opportunities. The silence is filled, With the news of things to come, Pregnant with possibilities, Something I never knew. There is no isolation, All is within me. Eternity there for the taking. There is no nothing. Never is hope absent. Something I never knew, Until now. © Jacqui Watson 2003
